At Saturday, August 27, 2005 6:13:00 PM, PresbyPoet
There is a disorder called obsessive compulsive disorder. You get fears, and or compulsions. Howard Hughes (The Aviator) had it. My twin sons both have it to varying degrees. A simple example would be that like Lady McBeth you fear that your hands were contaminated, so you have to keep washing them. YOu may know they are clean, but they still feel unclean.
Fear is non-rational. I am afraid of heights. There are places up high that are perfectly safe, yet my reptile brain is terrified. No amount of logic will convince it that it is safe.
Not saying you have OCD, but there are things that can convince the part of our brain that specializes in looking for danger, something is dangerous, and no amount of logic will cure it. That sounds like what has happened to your innocent brain. For some "reason" (or none) your brain now associates large fuzzy animals with danger.
The fear is real, your husband should be nicer. Is there anything he is afraid of? That can be a way of helping him understand if you put it that way.
At Thursday, September 07, 2006 10:04:00 AM,
When I was 3, I spent 3 weeks with my very cruel and very delusional aunt. As a toddler, I wasn't fond of baths, especially since my aunt would scratch my head raw while "washing" my hair. When I resisted the tub one day, she told me a very vivid and violent story about how if I didn't bathe, the washclothes would come and eat me in my sleep. The story alone was scary enough, but to further drill it in, my cousin, 13 years older than me, stormed into my room in the middle of the night with a washclothe on his hand, with an evil face drawn on it in Sharpie marker, and also used a flashlight to illuminate nothing but the scary face.
To this day, 14 years later, I HATE washclothes. Seeing one gives me the heeby jeebys, and touching one is enough to make me short of breath.
You're still more weird though. :D
-K
Ha! I did a post called "My Top Ten Most Irrational Fears", the first of which involves going to the loo in the middle of the night and getting bit on my butt by a snake (poisonous, of course) that came up through the toilet.